About a month ago, I had the opportunity to revisit Disney World. It had been over a decade since I had inhaled the same oxygen as Princess Aurora and puked all over my mother after riding the teacups. The night before the trip, I sat wide-eyed and ecstatic knowing within a few hours, I would be able to relive my childhood and scamper around an amusement park full of princesses, glitter, and happiness. In these moments of expectation, it is often hard to devote the time necessary to prepare. After exactly 2½ hours of sleep and several syrupy caffeinated beverages, I found myself wondering the park. A few hours later, I quickly regretted all the late night enthusiasm, now left at the mercy of heat and social exhaustion.
Even as adults, there are moments in life where we understand an overall idea of what is to come. For many of my friends right now, that thrill is wrapped in babies and weddings (Congrats, by the way!). For others it is a calling towards a specific education, career, or even ministry. So the big question is, when something is so close you can almost touch it do you lie awake in anticipation or reach out and take it?
Luke 15: 11-24, NIV:
Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them. “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything. “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him. “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.
We live in a world of instant gratification. Need affirmation? Post a photo on Instagram. Just got out of a relationship? Just swipe left. Hungry? Go through a drive-thru.
It doesn’t take much to provide any degree of satisfaction anymore; it’s all “available”.
So within a season of waiting, an increase of patience if you will, how on earth do we handle it?
In the parable, there are a few pieces that elaborate on seasons, waiting, patience and all that good stuff:
- “Give me”
- Set off
- After
- Go back
- Celebrate
In this story, the son is aware there is a portion of money he will receive. He does not inquire of his father and ask if it is okay for him to receive it now. He, in essence, demands it, without hesitation his father hands it to him, the son then takes his inheritance and leaves. After he is finally at the lowest point in his life (literally starving and resorting to eating food from the pig’s dish-thing), he recognizes he can return to his father as a servant and beg for forgivingness. But on his way back, the father sees him coming and the story concludes with a celebration of his return.
Okay, so a lot to digest here.
While there are many parts in life seasons of waiting speak to, let’s focus on a calling to ministry.
About a month ago, I felt the Lord calling me to use my studies, not for a personal vendetta of recognition, but to serve within middle and high school ministry. Immediately, I rushed to find an opportunity in a local church. I mean, God called me so better pack up and go right? Ummm, not exactly.
My sweet roommate shared her story of a calling towards international missions about 14 years ago. In the mean time, her mission field has been established within the states and every attempt at pursuing global work has resulted in a closed door.
These stories are more common then you think. When I felt God call me to work with teenagers, and I watched at the door slammed in front of my face, I truly did question if I was loosing my mind or if I had actually heard God to begin with. It seems like in services when someone is called to something it’s typically a “Go now” response. So when we, “go now”, how is it this doesn’t always work out?
Within a college study on 1 and 2 Samuel we have focused on the life of David. One of the key components to his success resided in him inquiring of God. When the answers and calling seemed obvious, he still asked. But when he (ultimately had good intentions) assumed what God wanted to be done [See 2 Samuel 6] it brought along extreme distress. Just like the son and his “go now” mentality, while it may seem appropriate in the moment (Oh! I’ll just do this now because I’m young and God loves young people, or God said I’m going to do this so I’m just gonna jump in and He will provide) “now” is sometimes not the best decision. Not saying, God can’t provide in these times, just hang on for a moment.
If we were to swap the “Go now” attitude with it’s counter it would look something like, “Wait up”.
Do you ever wonder what things would look like if you had just waited a second? Perhaps you pulled your brownies out of the oven a few minutes before they were completely done, or you enrolled in the first university acceptance you received in the mail before checking to see if anything else came in—whatever it is. Do you ever wonder?
When you’re called to ministry, I think of it almost like God is giving you a sneak peak of your life-blueprint. Whether service is near the end of the page or smack down in the middle, He has given you something to anticipate, something to get excited over. In our rush to “go now”, much like kids (and adults) staying awake the night before going to Disney, you may not inquire of God since the answer is ‘clear’ and you will end up exhausted and unprepared.
Here’s the big idea. When you’re called, but God tells you to “wait up” He’s not saying, “never mind”. In a season of waiting there’s a time for rest and preparation. Whether it’s like David and it’s moving the Chest of God without fully understanding the precautions necessary for transport, or today in international missions, the season is not in vain.
It’s easy to think that when you’re not moving forward, you’re not moving at all. But the cool thing about God is He’s always moving, even when we can’t see it. A season of waiting is a moment for Him to prepare you, your heart, your mind, your soul, your strength, for what is to come.
In verse 24 of the parable, it reads there is a celebration that occurs after his return. I love that throughout all the misery this poor guy endured there is that glimpse of redemption and blessings that poor out. At the end of the day, God just wants to bless you. He’s a really really good dad. He does not sit up in heaven and say, “Hey, you see that guy down there? Yeah, make him miserable. I’m bored up here with all the harps and stuff”. Yeah, no. Doesn’t work that way. Think of waiting and/or testing as constructive criticism: there is potential in you!
Fun fact. If you want to know more, think of this. God is the definition of love. What is the first part of 1 Corinthians 13:4? “Love is patient”.
Season of waiting? Season of patience and transformation.
Transformation how? Patience.
Patience is what? God.
So what is happening exactly?
He’s molding you more and more like Him…every…single…day. Pretty cool, huh?
In this season of waiting, I’m not going to lie. I’m anticipating. I get excited thinking of what’s going to happen within a few months or even a year. But here’s the thing. If you’re so fixated on what’s to come, you miss what’s happening now. And what’s happening now is SO IMPORTANT. You’re literally getting ready to go do whatever it is you’re supposed to do. So don’t take this lightly! Immerse yourself in this moment. Grab your Bible, sift through your contact list and stay in constant communication with those who encourage you in this time, listen to what God is saying. Even if it seems so blatantly obvious, inquire of Him first. Don’t miss something important before you move.
He’s not saying “don’t go”, He’s asking you to “wait up”.